Lazy Sunday

I am at last getting my day of rest. I should be hiking, grocery shopping, answering emails, etc. Instead I am sitting in the yard with the dog on my lap playing with my phone, because that's what I feel like doing. So there!

Gig last night was challenging. I found myself kind of scared to make the hour long drive down to Orange County...and I just felt really uncomfortable and slightly nauseated all night. Yep, it's at that point. I've accepted that I'm just not going to feel "good" for a while, and that's ok. It's so close to the wire I really can't complain, and I am glad the feeling crappy didn't rear its head until the last few days.

Right now my head is reeling from a couple of things. I hate to be cryptic but to protect people's privacy I won't go into detail here - suffice it to say a couple of people have revealed really dark, traumatic things from their past to me recently and I am now somewhat traumatized for them. It's amazing the secrets people carry around with them - it certainly makes me understand them a lot better, but it makes me incredibly sad for them, too. Kind of can't get my mind off these things at the moment.

One attempt at distracting myself from these dark revelations is one if my favorite lazy day pastimes - Real Estate Porn. Saw with interest that one of my favorite Altadena Victorians has dropped its price again - this time to way below what I owe on this house. Does make me kind of rub my chin a little bit. However this is all just a nice fantasy. For one, I doubt I could break even selling this house right now, definitely not paying a realtor their fee. That would leave me with no down payment. I also doubt I could get a decent loan (or any loan) as a self-employed person right now (and for sure not with little or no down payment). Then there's the issue of the repairs the new place would no doubt need at that price. And the moving from a great school district to a crappy school district. I'm sure I'll soon learn having access to an awesome public school is worth its weight in gold (and this is a reality for me now - not something to worry about in the distant future "if" I ever have kids). Still, it's fun to fantasize. Maybe some day it will look like a good financial decision to move, but now is for sure not that time. I'll probably tool over there later just for a peek anyway, though.