This morning I woke up with angry boobs and an angry baby demanding said boobs. This whole weaning thing is not going as smoothly as I'd hoped. I don't know how I'm going to get B to be content sitting in the playpen for hours while I try to sleep without a good long breastfeed first. Now he won't even let me pick him up without it - he just screams and kicks and pushes away from me; and I can forget about trying to change his sopping overnight diaper in this state. He's only content to hang out in the playpen when he's already content. So, do I sacrifice sleep to wean? And what the heck do I do with him at 6 am anyway? Ugh! If only I could get pregnant while still breastfeeding just once a day - but I don't think that's in the cards for me.
Well, for now it's just too overwhelming. I'm going to take it one day at a time. Tomorrow morning I'm going to feed him because I will desperately need my sleep. After that I can make a new plan - maybe every other day, as the nurse practitioner suggested. And if I absolutely have to delay my TTC plans a month or two, well, so be it. I have to be open to all options.
One unpleasant reality I discovered today is that in this kind of heat, two of my options to entertain B are out - my Silverlake walk, and the playroom. It's an absolute oven up there (I'm actually a little worried about the toys melting), and the walk would just plain be unsafe. So, more shifting of routines as the summer comes on...I'll need to find warm weather activities for us. Thankfully I have a/c but it is so insanely expensive to run that I try to avoid it.
B is extremely fussy and cranky today. That makes two of us, kid!
I hope tonight goes well and that tomorrow morning goes even better.
ReplyDeleteWe tried a snack with our last bottle tonight. I am up for anything that may result in everyone getting more sleep.
Love that picture!
ReplyDeleteWeaning Finn was so hard - but when we were getting close, my angry boobs had become a thing of the past. Maybe let him nurse enough to take the edge off, then distract him with real food? That would make mornings harder (less sleep) but it might be worth a try.
I was thinking kind of along the same lines as Shannon... What about feeding him breakfast first, and then putting him in the playpen and going back to sleep? Just a thought! Good luck... 3 hours of sleep just will NOT cut it for me either!
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