I’m also having one of those “maybe I need to rethink this” moments with regards to summer camp plans. I had every intention of signing the boys up for their cheap rec center camp as usual - they always open sometime in May for registration. On a whim last week I checked the website and discovered to my horror that randomly this year they opened on April 1st and the camp is full with long wait lists. So that camp is impossible, as are half the other rec center camps within a reasonable distance. Thankfully a couple - highland park, and the one they went to in I think 2018 - don’t open until April 22; highland park says you have to do it in person that morning, which I will try to do. However, it may not work out, and I need to accept that. This would have been our last year, anyway - Bobby ages out at 13 - and these camps are pretty low budget and poorly run. However, they are (relatively) cheap all day childcare when I need it the most. And they get to go on fun field trips and not be on screens all day. I have a lot of anxiety about trying to manage their time all summer - I have to work, it’s not entirely practical for me to be cooking and cleaning up three meals a day, arranging activities and policing their online time. I mean, if I must do these things, I must, but it fills me with dread. Summer is insanely stressful for me under any circumstances; adding in all day childcare for nine weeks and I’ll just about lose my mind.
It’s not like there aren’t other options, but they’re all twice as expensive. $400-$600 a week for each kid for a month is way above my pay grade. And, things are already full. So, I’m going to do my best and be super aggressive about getting the kids into the highland park camp, then maybe consider the one in San Fernando they went to years ago, then maybe if I have to, try the full time childcare thing. This may be my future, anyway - maybe just jump in now…?
Today marks the beginning of week 2 of my diet challenge. Three pounds down, with the understanding that most, if not all, of this weight is just water weight from my trip. But more important than numbers moving is the fact that I’ve found it pretty easy. I haven’t been driven mad by hunger, even on my two 800 calorie “fast” days. It feels sustainable, even if it doesn’t turn out to be. I’ve just got to keep this up for four months if I want to fit into my favorite clothes again. Continuing with my workouts, which is challenging with my very painful arthritic toe and stiff shoulders from frozen shoulder, but I’m doing it, and it does generally give me a good mental boost as well. I’m forming new habits - not snacking, drinking more water, taking the time to make salads, etc - and it gives me a lot of hope for the future.
I signed contracts for 2026 & 2027 and today signed the addendum to add Thursday night to 2025. God I hope that works out.
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