SMC documentary tonight!

I don't have much to blog about today, but did want to make sure you all knew about the HBO documentary First Comes Love, a first hand account of a woman's journey to becoming an SMC, which airs tonight. I heard about it on NPR a few weeks ago and am thrilled to finally watch something from our perspective - usually this whole path is told from the perspective of the kids or the donors. On the west coast here it airs at 6 PM. Try to watch it if you can! Would love to "discuss" it with some of you.

As mentioned, not much else to report. Still pregnant. Was quite sick on Saturday, then not at all yesterday, and only a little bit today. Viability scan tomorrow. I am not nervous about it - maybe I'm getting cocky now, but I'd be really shocked if they didn't find anything, even though I know that happens to women every day. At this late date it would be really a tragedy to discover no heartbeat or a "missed" miscarriage, especially for how strong my symptoms continue to be (everything smells like feet). So, just holding the good thought that everything will be a-ok tomorrow.

Mostly on my mind these days is how my event looms one month away, how unprepared I feel, how much I'm dreading all the work I still have to do, and how little money I have. I know, I'm being profoundly negative about it and I need to get over that. But it's Monday, the days are numbered, and there's just so much detail-oriented stuff that has to happen now. I am just full of dread. Perhaps I have misplaced all my pregnancy anxiety on to my event. I don't know. 

Anyway, watch the movie tonight!