May is here

May is here and I am torn between feeling like I wish this time would never end, and wishing it would go more quickly. Spring is always weird for me because my event is open (as of this year, we’re always open) but I’m between the opening hoopla and the time where things need to get done, so it’s an awkward holding pattern. The kids are itching to be done with school - five more weeks - everywhere is a feeling of ramping up while also winding down.

After doing a bit of research and asking in groups, I was able to find some suitable summer camp options for older kids for next year - gone will be the days of lunches provided and full days, however I’m pleased to see there’s at least something to keep tweens and young teenagers occupied for a few hours each day. I’m especially interested in some theater camps, science camps, and volunteer camps. Everything will cost more than I’m used to, but I may not need many weeks in the future. I will probably have to Frankenstein together a series of different camps week by week. I also got a notice that the boys’ atheist sleepaway camp may be canceled due to lack of signups, which has me slightly panicked since this is the only year they need to be somewhere as I’ll be in Korea for three of the weekdays they’d be gone. I know that camp never really rebounded after covid, and it makes me sad. I saw that the YMCA sleepaway camp still has a few spots - but I don’t want to bail and make their situation worse, while also not wanting to be left canceled on at the last minute. I imagine they won’t know for sure until it gets so close that they have no other option but to close. I’m just hoping desperately that they can squeak by one more year. 

Our penultimate desert visit starts tomorrow night, and that’s another thing that’s coming too fast. I’m struggling to figure out how to stay on my diet while also cooking for other people all weekend. I’m down six pounds - my Lose It calorie counting app threw me a little party - and I’m pretty proud of that. I no longer have to wonder if the method I developed will work. It definitely does; now I just have to stick with it for three more months. I’m 1/3 of the way there. I’m still at the point where none of my clothes fit, I still have a big fat gut, and I can’t cross my legs or bend over and tie my shoes easily. But I know from experience that another 5-6 lbs and all of that will change. In 5-6 lbs I can wear 70% of my wardrobe; in 12 lbs I can wear 100% of it. That’s my goal. I think I can do it.