Two Months

Baby T is two months old today. I cannot believe he was born two months ago - it seems like a million years ago. Sometimes I go back and read some of my posts from that time and I am rocketed back to how I felt then - but my brain has moved on; it's had to. I believe most of what is called "mommy brain" is just sleep deprivation, but I think part of it too is your brain just doesn't have room for all that information. When you're trying to remember how long thawed breast milk will keep after sitting out a couple of hours and then being refrigerated, suddenly the name of that actor guy who was in that thing just doesn't seem that important. 

I have had a major revelation about infant sleep. This is life changing. If only I'd known this with Bumpus! For the last week or so I have been putting Theo to bed shortly after B - tonight it was at seven. And he has consistently gone to sleep within minutes and not woken up until about one AM, and then wakes up for a couple more feeds (3 and 6 typically). It's completely amazing to me that a baby just a few weeks old can have, and wants, a bed time. Why did I not do this with B, and kept him up with me all night? A few reasons:

I honestly thought infants didn't need a bedtime because they were up all night anyway. I had anxiety about being separate from him and relying on a baby monitor. And I was lonely and wanted to hang out with him. But our evenings were torture - he would just fuss and fuss and mangle my nipples. All he really wanted was to be asleep. Who knew???