I was a ball of nerves all morning as you can imagine; I had been listening to Grace Jones' epic La Vie en Rose all week to get in the mood, and so decided to treat this awesome 6 foot Jamaican entertainer as my guardian angel for my date. She would help me get through and do what I needed to do.
We had a great time. Two hour lunch followed by ice cream at another location. But no sparks. Zip.
I threw down some flirty comments - but he deflected masterfully. In retrospect it's possible my flirty comments could have been interpreted as chummy; but it doesn't matter since he was so clearly not interested. At least everything was kept friendly and normal and I didn't embarrass myself. I just felt out the vibe and the vibe said "stop". So I did.
The sad thing is he is way cooler and more interesting than I'd thought. He's actually kind of confident and sexy. And we get along great and have a lot in common. Sucks, right? I know!!! But what can you do?
I'm bummed but I'm glad I went through all that insanity and just went for it. At least now I know and can retire the idea and move on. And at the end he said, "let's do this again!" so I will call him for more daytime get togethers, because, why not? But no expectations.
Is love and romance for everyone except me? Boo.