Monday, July 29, 2013

SMC documentary tonight!

I don't have much to blog about today, but did want to make sure you all knew about the HBO documentary First Comes Love, a first hand account of a woman's journey to becoming an SMC, which airs tonight. I heard about it on NPR a few weeks ago and am thrilled to finally watch something from our perspective - usually this whole path is told from the perspective of the kids or the donors. On the west coast here it airs at 6 PM. Try to watch it if you can! Would love to "discuss" it with some of you.

As mentioned, not much else to report. Still pregnant. Was quite sick on Saturday, then not at all yesterday, and only a little bit today. Viability scan tomorrow. I am not nervous about it - maybe I'm getting cocky now, but I'd be really shocked if they didn't find anything, even though I know that happens to women every day. At this late date it would be really a tragedy to discover no heartbeat or a "missed" miscarriage, especially for how strong my symptoms continue to be (everything smells like feet). So, just holding the good thought that everything will be a-ok tomorrow.

Mostly on my mind these days is how my event looms one month away, how unprepared I feel, how much I'm dreading all the work I still have to do, and how little money I have. I know, I'm being profoundly negative about it and I need to get over that. But it's Monday, the days are numbered, and there's just so much detail-oriented stuff that has to happen now. I am just full of dread. Perhaps I have misplaced all my pregnancy anxiety on to my event. I don't know. 

Anyway, watch the movie tonight!


  1. Good luck tomorrow! I don't get HBO but might be able to DVR the movie at my parents' house.

  2. I don't get HBO, either, but maybe I can find the movie on On Demand or something. My sister has netflix, so I could try that, too. It does sound good!

    Good luck tomorrow with the scan. I'm sure it'll be just fine!

    And I'm also sure your event will go well. You always seem to pull it off so well at the last minute, so I have no doubt it'll go great!

    Hang in there, and try to get work done when you can... It's so hard to do, and so easy to procrastinate! I know - I'm an excellent procrastinator myself!

  3. I keep seeing this documentary mentioned, and I've watched the looks so interesting, but I don't have HBO. :( You will have to share what you thought for all of us that can't watch!

    Good luck tomorrow, not that you need it!

  4. I contributed to Kickstarter for this project! And didn't even think about the fact that I am at my mom's and -- SHOCKER -- she has HBO! So I'm getting to watch it "live"! All because of this reminder. So thanks!!!

  5. Another one with no HBO. Hang in there with the event. Once it's over, you have a break for a bit.

  6. As a Canadian, we're always behind in the releases. I do have HBO Canada but am sure it will be a month or 2 before this hits there.

    Thinking of you today & hoping all goes well!